Curhatan Random #1

12/1/2012
Aku berhasil bolak-balik lewat kelasnya the-one-that-shall-remain-nameless itu EMPAT KALI. Dan ngeliat dia TIGA KALI. And I ain't even mad. Aku stay cool. Suer. I swear this time I mean it. My what-so-called feelings for him have gone.

Aku....

Aku....

AKU KEREN!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA.

Kalian semua harus tahu betapa sakitnya aku di bulan Juli yang sudah capek-capek menyiapkan mental buat senyum dan menyalaminya..... eh.... DILIRIK aja enggak.

Selamat belajar! :D Maaf aku melanggar komitmen nggak buka blog sampe bulan Juni. Ini terakhir, janji :B

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Do you want to be a winner? then don't runaway from your problems--just face it. Grow up. And remember, there's a difference between growing up and growing old. -BMH

A

BY THE WAY, TODAY'S MARK TWAIN'S 176TH BIRTHDAY XD Don't ya know who is Mark Twain? He's one of my greatest inspirations in my life (after Prophet Mohammed, of course) And, he got soooo many quotes that kind of related to my personal life. Hehe. 

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.”

“Really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great.”

AND MY FAVOURITE ONE :

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Gotta study now. Got a lotta exam this week, YET, the final exam is on Dec 5th. I SHOULD'VE SEEN THIS COMING.

Let. Me. Die.

Don't You Dare Touch My Kerupuk

Don’t you dare touch my kerupuk
Don’t you even put the thought on your mind
I’m gonna cut your chest open,
feed your heart to the lions at the zoo.

Don’t you even touch my kerupuk
Don’t you even have the thought on your heart
I’m gonna cut your head open,
Take your brain out, shove it back to your behind

I love my kerupuk
They’re like my flesh and blood
Stay off my kerupuk
Or you won’t sleep so well at night
You’ll have nightmares for as long that you’re alive

Itu lagunya Adhitia Sofyan :p funny song with a galau melodies *oooops* Rada kejem emang ya cuma buat sebuah kerupuk lol. Tapi kerupuk itu emang one of the best food that ever invented XD NEED IT NOW!! Btw, november feels like heaven, you know, because the cold wind started to blow periodically, and right now, mangoes are everywhere ~(‾▿‾~)

p.s. : Wish me luck for my 'susulan' examinations! Omg, I haven't done 3 exams. Oh maaaaaaan.

Salam matahari!! ☼☼☼

B

rarararandom

Saya lagi jatuh cinta banget sama musik-musik aliran New Ageeeee *meluk Yiruma* --> apasih --"

Apa sih musik aliran new age? kata wikipedia sih New Age music itu "music of various styles intended to create artistic inspiration, relaxation, and optimism. It is used by listeners for yoga, massage, meditation, and reading as a method of stress management or to create a peaceful atmosphere in their home or other environments"

hahaaa gitulah. To be more specific, in my own thought, new age music itu yang peaceful, yang dengernya rasanya bikin tenang banget. Entah tenang karena ngegalau inget masa lalu *lirik apirang sama matahari*, atau tenang karena tenang (?). Gitulah. Kalo mau tau dengerin piano instrumental-nya Yiruma aja di hatiku. (maaf ya ini emang random sekali) haha btw, saya terlanjur nganggep semua modern instrumental yang bikin tenang itu pasti alirannya New Age. Sampe Ballade pour Adeline pun saya anggap New Age. Tau kan Ballade pour Adeline? Pasti tau dong, kan sering diputar di gramed. Kalo nggak tau... cari aja deh di youtube ya :p

Karena udah terlanjur random, mari bikin posting ini makin random serandom-randomnya.

Oiya nyaris lupa! tadi saya ada sesi mengobrol sama Dewice. Well, as usual, kita ngomongin.........cowok. (itu random banget curhatnya. Mulai dari ngediskusiin serious matter like the status of a boy sampai lawakan saya tentang sampe lebaran kuda pun Apirang nggak akan pernah jadi romantis. Forget it. Aaaaaaaarrrgh)  Seriously, I was thinking that I was the only one that is really strange, tapi ternyata aku punya temen *peluk Dewi*

terus kita pindah ngobrol di mushola (tadinya di kantin). Heboh banget, sampe bikin ricuh yang lagi mentoring plus hehehe maaf ya teman. Terus anza dateng. Terus tiba-tiba kita denger Tower 16 (semacam ekstrakulikuler yang nyiarin radio, dan lagunya kedengeran satu smansa) nyetel River Flows in You-nya Yiruma. Dewi lari keluar biar bisa denger lagunya lebih jelas lagi. Saya terpaku, eh nggak gitu juga deh, pokoknya undescribable.

Omong-omong , entah mengapa akhir-akhir ini Tower 16 seriiiiing banget nyetel lagu yang bikin saya pengen garuk-garuk tembok, saking lagu yang disetel itu galau banget yet sound really good, and those songs were my favourite songs in the past. (kata Nisa = lagu-lagu yang enak didenger itu biasanya lagu galau. Oh nooo) Kemarin dan kemarin pernah disetel Only Hope yang dinyanyiin ulang sama Mandy Moore. That was my favourite song during the summer of 2011. Lagu itu juga soundtrack-nya A Walk to Remember, film yang diadaptasi dari novel karangan Nicholas Sparks, dan ITU novel pertama yang bisa bikin saya nangis, saking kerennya si gaul Landon yang tadinya nggak suka sama Jamie yang kuper, tapi akhirnya dia setia banget sama Jamie yang ngidap leukemia, bahkan Landon sampe bela-belain bikin teleskop sendiri buat Jamie, ngebacain alkitab dan nungguin Jamie tiap hari, sampai mewujudkan keinginan-keinginan terakhir Jamie, termasuk keinginan untuk nikah di gereja yang sama dengan gereja tempat menikah orangtuanya. I just can't resist it! (btw bagusan novelnya daripada filmnya. Sumpah banyak detail yang nggak disebutin di film, dan baca novelnya itu bikin deg! banget.)

Terus lagu galau sepanjang masa, The Man Who Can't Be Moved, juga sering to the max diputer (aku baru sadar, most of the script's songs are really... galau.) Dan, Rabu kemarin, saat saya lagi buru-buru mau syuro departemen dkm, tiba-tiba.... terdengar Bimbang-nya Melly Goeslaw. Soundtracknya AADC. Cinta. Rangga. AAAAAAAAAAAA I'M GOING CRAZYYY (Untung belum pernah disetel lagu DJ Got Us Fallin' in Love Again. Bisa gila inget matahari entar.)

Oke, emang nggak selebay itu. Muka saya emang 'datar' alias poker face ketika denger lagu-lagu itu, tapi, percayalah kalau sebenarnya ketika itu saya lagi dying inside. For me, every love songs make sense. And it's really awkward when I found out that those love songs have the power to destroy all the defense I've built these months. I almost forgotten the self-promise that I made several days ago, a promise not to fall in love again (jangan bilang nggak mungkin, liat ke posting sebelumnya :p)

Belum cerita ya? After had a lot of argumentation with my own mind, I choose not to fall over boys again. I  just wanna admire 'em, that's all. I'm sure you know what's the meaning of admirer. Yeah, for me, it's kinda the same with being a fan.

Bukan, bukan fan yang ini

tapi fan yang ini

Oke. Lanjut! Bedanya ngefans sama ngecrush? Beda lah. Fans itu ya cuma 'mengagumi' seseorang without hoping something in return. Ngefans ya ngefans aja, buat seneng-seneng aja. Anggap aja seperti ngefans sama JB atau siapa gitu.

kamis kemarin saya sempat ngefans sama seseorang. Kenapa? Abis dia lucu. Bukan lucu yang humoris, tapi lucu karena dia itu mukanya lucu (loh?) terus dia keren, suka sama 'NASA thingy' gitu. Tapi, saya langsung cabut begitu tau dia hobi melakukan kebiasaan buruk yang diawali huruf N dan diakhiri huruf K (ok, ini apa banget..) Bukannya saya nggak pernah kayak gitu, (tapi terakhir ngelakuin kebiasaan buruk itu pas kelas 8 kalo gasalah) tapi gatau kenapa, ada some feelings yang bilang bahwa ngefans sama dia itu salah. Ampuuun, padahal paginya, ketika everythings seem to be soooo dark, when i was in a mood swing, i saw him and he was the reason of my smile. Tapi sorenya, saya ilfil. Aneh banget emang.

Eh, nemu lagu baru nih... lagu The Script. Jadi... pasti galau wkwkwk.

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real


Cause I still don't know how to act
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on

Kenapa harus related banget sih?? *pundung di pojok ruangan

Dadaaaaaaaah~

Bewew

Bold

Bold what applies to you

1. I woke up in the afternoon today.
2. I have at least three picture frames in my room.
3. My trash can is full.
4. I love snow globes, but I’d never buy one.
5. I use my regular phone more than my cell phone.
6. I’m single, but I don’t want to be. (FOR ME : I'M SINGLE, AND I DO WANT TO BE, AND PROUD OF IT!)
7. My hair is not layered.
8. I hate the term “best friend,” but I use it anyway.
9. I get along with my mum more than my dad.
10. I like making beaded bracelets.
11. I’ve never run for class president/treasurer, etc.
12. Most of my friends are white.
13. I have over 150 CDs in my collection.
14. I would rather listen to the radio than CDs.
15. I own whiteout, but I barely ever use it.
16. I’m very shy until you get to know me.
17. Some take my shyness as being mean/rude.
18. Most people probably don’t understand me.
19. I have a very random sense of humor.
20. I do not consider myself attractive. -> THIS.
21. I feel that I’m more mature than most people my age.
22. But not all the time.
23. I used to pick my nose and wipe it on the wall.
24. I’d rather be cold than hot.
25. I always wait for that one person to sign on.
26. I’m probably online too much for my own good.
27. I am trying to lose weight and it’s not working out very well.
28. I own a LOT of chapstick. A LOT.
29. I love to buy paper… but I barely use it.
30. I write in my paper journal once a day or more.
31. I am an American, yet I find them annoying.
32. I’ve used binoculars the wrong way before.
33. I’m thirsty, but I can’t be bothered to go get something.
34. One of my best friends is that of the opposite sex.
35. Sometimes I feel really, really sorry for myself.
36. My stomach hurts a little bit right now.
37. Other times I feel really, really lucky.
38. I have a friend (or more) who creeps me out.
39. I have more than one shelf up in my room.
40. It’s sunny out today.
41. I don’t have a car. (well, my parents do. I don't.)
42. I’m very picky with food.
43. I have a hard time with directions.
44. I am a little bit obsessive compulsive.
45. I talk to myself in the mirror sometimes.
46. I don’t have that many DVDs yet.
48. I feel very sick if a movie is gory.
49. I have a lot in common with my best friend.
50. I believe in the theory that opposites attract.
51. I’ve liked someone who is at least four years older than me.
52. I’ve started a fire/explosion in the microwave oven before.
53. I’m worried that one of my pets will die soon.
55. Never been THAT drunk, but it might be kinda fun.
56. Sometimes I act drunk even when I’m not.
57. It annoys me when people chew loudly.
58. And breathe loudly.
59. And click their pens like crazy.
60. I enjoy bold surveys, mostly ‘cause I have no life.
61. I’d rather have a popsicle than popcorn.
62. I’d rather do laundry than the dishes.
63. Someday, I will go to England.
64. I’d rather be in a dark room than a bright one.
65. My alarm clock annoys me very, very much.
66. When I was younger, I went to summer school for fun.
67. I was made fun of in middle school.
68. I’ve never eaten sushi and never will.
69. I remember where I was when I first learned to whistle.
70. If Barney is on TV, I will still sit there and watch.
71. MySpace is annoying, but I’m pretty much addicted to it.
72. I hAtE iT wHeN pPl TyPe LyK dIs!!!
73. When I talk to my crush, I get too excited.
74. People have told me that I’m sexy before.
75. I never believe it when they do.
76. I love to write, but whenever I start something new I can’t finish it.
77. I love to read.
78. If I lay down and watch TV, I end up falling asleep.
79. I absolutely LOVE riding my bike.
80. I love to play badminton, but I don’t play often.
81. I have never been on a sports team before.
82. I’m in at least one advanced placement class.
83. I’m in the class of 2013.
84. Jacuzzis and hot tubs are very relaxing.
85. I have stood up and done something else during this survey.
86. I space out a lot.
87. I’ve made a shelf in a store collapse before.
88. I’m a big crybaby, and I know it.
89. I wouldn’t mind having a ferret for a pet.
90. I love to watch home videos.
91. I miss my childhood and wish I could go back.
92. I’d rather brush my teeth normally than use an electric toothbrush.
93. Dippin’ Dots are good.
94. I feel like I’m more confident than I used to be.
95. My friends come to me for advice often.
96. I’ve had over five significant others in my lifetime.
97. I have cheated on one or more of them before.
98. Last year’s math class was completely useless.
99. I hate the fact that I’m growing up. I don’t want to.
100. I miss a lot of my old friends, but not all of them

I am so sorry, for not posting for days. Hehe, to be honest, my everydays routine is just wake up, pray shubuh, browsing, pray dzuhur, browsing again, pray ashar, browsing again, pray maghrib, browsing again, take a bath, browsing again, pray isya, browsing again, sleeping (which means, eating is optional, as long as I have computer in front of me) I'm just lazy as hell to make a posting, coz I got new stuff in my computer. Yeah, I got new games, and I played it for 12 hours straight. I'm really such a geek, rawr -_-

I've got so many things to told you all. About the graduation party, about my thoughts about life and love, and about my RECENT life decisions. Just wait till tomorrow, 'kay? :D

Sebuah Pesan

Dengan hormat,

Oke, sekarang saya sudah capek kucing-kucingan dengan anda. Saya mau memperbaiki keadaan dan balik seperti 3 tahun ke belakang.

Saya minta maaf kalau sempat menjelek-jelekkan anda baik di fb, blog, maupun melalui mulut ke mulut. Dan saya juga minta maaf kalau saya sempat memperlakukan anda dengan sangat buruk. Itu semua karena saya trauma dikejar-kejar. Trauma ngeliat anda nongkrong dimana-mana. Trauma, karena saya dengar, nama saya di smp x sempat terkenal dengan label ‘pacarnya xxxxx’. Trauma lah, intinya. Jadi saya minta maaf. Saya nggak mau lagi menghindari anda, karena, mau nggak mau kita akan sangat sering bertemu, mulai di mushola al mukhlisin sampai angkot sekalipun.

Sekali lagi, saya melakukan hal ini untuk minta maaf, dan bukan dengan maksud atau tujuan lain. Dan tolong, setelah ini saya minta kalau kita bertemu lagi di suatu tempat, misalnya, anggap saja saya ini cuma anak tetangga, sama seperti Faris, Rifki, dan lain-lain. Lupakan saja masa lalu. Oya, kalau anda mau cerita tentang ini ke teman-teman atau pacar anda, silakan cerita. Tapi saya mohon dengan sangat, agar ceritanya tidak ditambah-tambah atau dikurang-kurang. Jangan sampai, permintaan maaf saya ini dianggap tindakan ‘caper’ atau ‘cinta lama bersemi kembali’ oleh teman teman anda atau pun dianggap sebagai tindakan ‘ngoray’ alias ‘selingkuh’ oleh pacar anda. Di sini, saya tekankan sekali lagi, saya hanya berusaha untuk memperbaiki keadaan sebelum hal ini menjadi semakin buruk.

Terima kasih.


Percaya ato enggak, 5 menit yang lalu saya mengirimkan pesan ini ke seseorang di fb.

Tebak saja siapa :)

random random random

Saya lebih suka naik motor daripada bo'il *dasar kampung*
Saya lebih suka naik bis ac bareng bareng daripada naek limo (yang ini MERAKYAT bukan KAMPUNG) muahahaha.

Gajelas.

Aku akan menggusur pabrik tembakau, lalu buruhnya dikasih lapangan kerja baru. Aku akan mengusir perusahaan yang membiayai tenaga kerja indonesia dengan upah tak layak. Aku akan memulangkan TKI di kolong jembatan di Jeddah (payah banget, waktu itu ga sempet nanya di mana kolong jembatan itu) Aku akan menuntut keadilan untuk para TKI. Aku akan memberantas para koruptor. Aku akan mencincang Gayus (eh...) Lalu Artalyta. Lalu apa itu Antasari Azhar. Masa dia ngebunuh Nasrudin? Konsentrasi. Kembali ke topik. Aku akan melunasi hutang hutang negara. Aku akan memberikan rumah yang layak bagi berjuta juta warga Indonesia yang masih hidup di pinggir rel KA, di pinggir kali, di bawah kolong jembatan, dsb.

AKU TIDAK AKAN MEMBEBANI MASYARAKAT DENGAN CURHAT NAIK GAJI.

Ya. Di atas adalah pemikiran ngaco saya beberapa tahun terakhir ini (em). Jadi cita citanya mau jadi presiden nih? Nggak ah. Mending jadi aktivis greenpeace aja. Atau jadi guru volunteer. Atau jadi peneliti atau dokter volunteer, pan saya sudah memutuskan mau kuliah di Sains aja, soalnya jumlah lulusan Indonesia itu paling sedikit jumlahnya yang S.Si (Sarjana Sains, itu loooh gelarnya PW alias Pak Warsito. Gelar Bapakku juga *bangga pan*) Terus? gimana nasib bangsa bisa berubah? -__- aduuuh Indonesia banyak banget ya masalahnya. Belom soal kebersihan, soal teroris, soal Gayus. Argh.

OOOOO Indonesiaku *mulai*

udah aaaaaaaaaaaaaah belom belajar b inggris :9 padahal mau TUC besok. WML ya :}

P.S. : Aku SMAnya dimana ya? --" ga semangat masuk mana mana nih. Insan Cendikia? Say goodbye aja deh. Harus bisa bahasa arab boooo. Sama Ibu mau dilesin bahasa arab, tapi keburu males coy! Taruna Nusantarace? Masa tiap hari LDK? yang bener ajee -__- Smansa? mana boleeeh?! Smanti? APALAGI ITU MAH.

Huhuhu masa jadinya masuk pesantren abal abal? ;_; (kayaknya nggak sebegitunya juga, TAPI kan SUATU KEMUNDURAN BESAR kalo misalnya belajar MIPA bilingual 3 tahun lamanya terus bahasa inggris tea ga kepake pake lagi pas SMA ..............................)

Sekalinya seorang cowok jadian, habislah semua nilai baik dia di mata saya.

(yee pan siapa nu peduli? -___-)