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BY THE WAY, TODAY'S MARK TWAIN'S 176TH BIRTHDAY XD Don't ya know who is Mark Twain? He's one of my greatest inspirations in my life (after Prophet Mohammed, of course) And, he got soooo many quotes that kind of related to my personal life. Hehe. 

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.”

“Really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great.”

AND MY FAVOURITE ONE :

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. Gotta study now. Got a lotta exam this week, YET, the final exam is on Dec 5th. I SHOULD'VE SEEN THIS COMING.

Let. Me. Die.

Ambigu yang Tercampur

-Ambigu 1
What's wrong with you guys?

Mereka begini, mereka begitu. Mereka memuja lelaki rupawan, melewatkan wanita menawan. Mereka takut pada tangisan.

Once again : SERIOUSLY, U GUYS, WHAT HAPPEN WITH U ALL?

I don't get it. Really. How come you guys choose me when there are more than 2 millions women in the world? Menga to the pa?

-Ambigu 2
Minggu ini ada 1 cowok yang pundung sama saya gara-gara saya bilang 'Alay'. Padahal kan cuma bercanda hehehe. Terus udah baikan, terus dianya pundung lagi. Baikan, pundung deui.

Kapok. Nggak lagi deh asal nyeletuk.


-Yang ini... adalah curcol.
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH APAAN ITU DI TV ADA LAGU...
"So we back in the club
Get that bodies rockin from side to side
Thank God the week is done,I feel like a zombi gone back to life (ba-back to life)
Hands-up,and suddenly we all got our hands-up
No control of my body"

Matahariii!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I will never get over him. It will never get enough. I'm crazy about him. Atau karena dia tinggal jauh dan 'keren' aja ya, makanya dia jadi keliatan amazing banget? Ga tau lah. Yang jelas sekarang, Matahari alias Ican itu semacam life-saver dan sangat mempermudah hidup GUE *oke sakali* Contoh :

A: Ehem ehem cieee Bewew sama ***************************************** nih...
B: Enggaklah, kan aku udah punya Matahari...
A: Siapa matahari?
B: Cowok keren dong..... Bukan anak smansa.

atau yang ini :

A: Ih kamu suka sama siapa sih?
B: Ada deeeeh.
A: Siapa atuh?
B: Matahari!
A: *pasang muka bete* itu mah aku juga tau!

atau yang lebih konyol lagi :

B : (lagi asik bikin sirine pas elektronika)
M : Cieeee bewew sama ************* nih....
B : Apa kamu bilang?!
M : Peace peace....
S : Nggak dia mah sukanya sama si ini nih....
B : Eh, asal kalian tau, yang aku suka bukan disini. Namanya Matahari. Dia keren banget.
M : Matahari........... matahari!!!!!! *nyanyi pake nada ga jelas*
B : (terdiam, depresi tingkat dewa.)
S : hahahaha
B : Iiih, Matahari itu lebih ganteng daripada kalian, kalian, kalian, kalian. (nunjuk cowok yang ngeledek satu persatu)
S : AJI....... (dasar kelinci emang, Aji wae semuanya --> Aji itu semacam trademark di X-5. Pas Pak Toni presentasi diktator sampe ada yang 'nyebut'. Wkwkwk)
B : BUKAN! Dia itu nggak ada di smansa, nggak ada di Bogor!
Cowok 2 : Iya, tapi di sepuluh lima ada dong...
B : (menerjang si S dengan meriam kame-kameha.)

Endingnya, saya jadi menyesal kenapa pake nyebut Matahari segala di depan cowok cowok itu. Penyesalan memang selalu datang terlambat. Hhh.

Pernah gak sih kamu ngerasa bahwa kehadiran kamu di bumi ini worthless? Ngerasa bahwa kamu itu cuma ngerugiin orang lain? Ngerasa bahwa actually, you don't belong here. Have you ever felt that you don't deserve this good life you had?

Well, I have.

And I've never understood the reason why so many people in the world comitted suicide until I had that thoughts.

TAPI, INGAT, KAMU SPERMA! #upssalah. Serius. Tapi, eh bener, quotenya raditya dika itu emang bikin saya semangat hidup. You were once the fastest sperm in your mother uterus, don't you ever forget that.

Atau, penyemangat di kala pengen tidur selama-lamanya adalah dengan baca qur'an dan Tuesdays With Morrie. Filsafat hidupnya kena banget. Hidup itu pilihan. Yes, it's all about choosing. Kamu bisa milih untuk terus 'hidup' atau 'mati' secara perlahan. Get busy living or get busy dying.

Self-notes :
It's always rain hard for people who deserve the sun.
You can't have a rainbow without a rain.
If you don't have the reason for living, you'll die for nothing.

P.S. : Yeaaaaaay! Tomorrow is the D-DAY! NUSA IS COMING UP! Btw, NUSA is an annual fieldtrip to Gunung Mas for grade X in my high school. I think I won't bring my camera, but I'll try to get the pics from my classmates as soon as posibble. Pray for me and my grades. And for my Pkn's book. May he rest in peace. Amen.

Salam TI,
Bewski (MASA IYA SEKARANG SAYA DIPANGGIL BEWSKI DI KELAS...)

1 Kalimat = Sejuta Kenangan

Here comes that feelings again...



Dan saya cuma bisa mengumpat,









"Memori sialan!"

I believe that telepathy works, that UFO exists, and miracle happens.
I dream big, then I pursue it.
(from the facebook account of Teh Annisa eASY)

It's About the Personality.

"A person who has good thoughts can never be ugly."

Seseorang yang mempunyai pikiran yang baik tidak akan pernah menjadi jelek.

Aaaa

Ya Allah, aku terpuruk!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaa kebakaran gimana ini sumpah di spensa ga pernah dapet segini apaan itu mate fisika geo kayak gitu aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahahahaha nilai mata pelajaran yang lain juga ga bagus sih tapi tapi tapi TEORI TIK EMANG NYEBELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN AAAAAAAAAAA APAAAN ITU ANGKANYA JELEK BANGET , PALING JELEK DI KERTAS ITU!!!! AAAAAHAHAHA pengen ketawa sambil nangis ih.


Istigfar.

Tapi gapapa deh, I admit that I hadn't put my maximal efforts. I admit that this semester, I've been super lazy  and procastinate a lot.  Saya malesnya tingkat dewa banget. *menghibur diri*

Nilai saya mungkin bukan yang terbaik, but at least, I know that this grades are really came from my own efforts. Alhamdulillah, betapa usaha-ngebut-belajar-dari-jam-4-pagi itu masih dibalas sama Allah dan nggak sia-sia.

Betapa untuk berubah menjadi lebih baik dan berlaku jujur itu nggak mudah, tapi ada kepuasan tersendiri yang menyertainya ketika kamu sudah berusaha melakukannya.

Yang deg-degan akan ngasih 'rapot bayangan' ke Bapak Ibu (kok jadi kayak idola cilik gini? -____-),


Bezta.

10

Saya udah mencoba bikin non-fiksi, yah, kayak jurnal gitu, tapi ngedeskripsiin tentang dari awal saya kenal apirang sampai...

Yeah, until I decided to get over him.

And you know what?

Belum apa-apa, tulisan itu sudah menghabiskan 10 halaman microsoft word. Padahal, itu masih berupa abstraksi yang belum lengkap, terputus-putus dan banyak sekali peristiwa yang terlewat. Bahkan banyak bagian yang baru berupa sebuah kalimat yang bisa cukup mengingatkan saya pada apa yang terjadi di masa lalu. Oh, well.

Kalau dibaca-baca lagi abstraksinya, despite of the fact that everything has changed now, I really really miss those times. Selama apa sih 2 tahun itu? Kayaknya sebentar sekali. Sebanyak itukah yang bisa terjadi, well, di antara 'kita'? I mean,  I can't really say that we ARE friends, and neither can he. Padahal, perumpamaannya kita itu udah masuk masa awkwardnya relation between a boy and a girl. You know, that time when every simple moves started to make sense and you're really scared to see him. DAN KALAU KALIAN LIAT GIMANA SEKARANG KITA ACT TOWARDS EACH OTHER, I bet you won't even realize if we had known each other before. We're really a pair of good actor. Uh-huh.

Oke, oke. Saya kangen, kangen banget, tapi di satu sisi saya nggak kangen. (jadi ambigu gini kan........) Intinya, he turned into a pretty big waste of my time. KE AMRIK AJA SANA KAMU! Eh jangan. Saya aja yang ke Amrik hehehehe *ada modus.

Bohong banget emang posting TLG itu. Kalian udah tau kan TLG itu kepanjangannya apa? The Last Galau.Yeah, it sounds silly. And weird. And intoxicating. Semakin kamu mencoba melupakan seseorang, semakin ingat jadinya. Duh.

P.S. : just by now I read 2 postings (or articles) that contain very different topic. This is the sign that, you know, Matahari is getting more handsome right now. Noooooooooooooo, I was just kidding. Tapi dia emang ganteng sih *sakaliiii* Btw, the postings are really cool! (kecuali website yang ngomongin tentang crushes itu -_-) Check it, especially if you're the students of Smansa!

yang keren ---> http://malesishere.wordpress.com/2010/10/27/a-loud-great-campaigns-silent-voices/#comments
yang 'agak-agak' ---> http://www.girlsaskguys.com/Articles/Flirting/Signs-He-Likes-You-Signs-He-Doesnt.html

OYA ONE MORE INFO!

You won't believe if it's the lyrics of a post-hardcore song. But trust me, this song really sounds good and had some related lyrics, i guess so. At least, I think it's the best post-hardcore song I ever heard. And this is the first post-hardcore song EVER that I liked. Hope you'll like it too.

I don't wanna take your precious time
'Cause you're such a pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty face
But you turned into a pretty big waste of my time
-If You Can't Hang by Sleeping with the Sirens

failure?

life

I guess, everything would be just fine.

Ini adalah saat-saat ketika saya pengen pergi aja. You know, it's not like I'm ready for it. I'm just, felt that, my  existence didn't have any special meaning for anyone. Ngeliat facebook,iri banget liat orang lain masih comment-commentan di status. Di ekskul, yang lain pada deket satu sama lain.

Dan dari 3 ekskul yang saya ikutin, nggak pernah saya ngerasa 'deket' banget kayak keluarga. Yes, I know, it 's my fault that I'm not so open to anyone. That I become more introvert each day. That I don't try to get closer to anyone. That I'm so individualistic and almost anti-social and barely ever saw my bffs again. Oh, God...

singkatnya, saat ini saya cuma seorang manusia yang... almost useless. Kerjaannya ngeblog-makan-minum-tidur.

I know, life is something that we must cherish, but... I felt like I've been trapped in wrong world. Kalau galaunya sudah mengkronis, kadang saya suka berpikir, well, kenapa harus saya sih yang lahir ke dunia ini? Kenapa nggak 'roh' yang lebih baik aja? yang lebih nurut sama orangtua, yang lebih bisa fokus belajar, yang bisa lebih lebih lah pokoknya.

Tapi, kata Raditya Dika, kalau kamu lagi stres, ingatlah bahwa you were once the fastest sperm. Kamu bisa ngalahin jutaan sel lainnya dan bertahan hidup selama berbulan-bulan. Kenapa sekarang jatuh cuma gara-gara puluhan masalah kecil?

agak 'sensitif' sih, tapi don't try to judge me! :9

Yang masih bertahan hidup karena Allah, dan well, orangtua.

B.