To be honest, I DID care about Apirang, believe it or not. I always thought that he'd fall for me too. But I was wrong. He didn't. It was only just a dream. Only my imagination. He got a crush on my friend, not me.
But, now, I don't care anymore about him.
Yeah, as a labile teenager, I still don't know, am I really going to forget him? with all those memories? My mouth would say 'Absolutely' but my heart won't. I just want to let it go, slowly, so I wouldn't feel hurt when trying get over him. And one day, I will smiled when remembering this moment. I will smile, when remembered past, remembering that happy feelings coming up when I see him. One day, this pain will be recovered. One day, I will forget my feelings for him, I will. One day, we're all will meet 'the one'. So, for all the broken-hearted people out there, don't worry. It's just a matter of time, isn't it? :)
Because there's some personal reason, actually, I must gettin' into smansa, must, i must worked really hard for it. Bukan soal atas dan apirang. Not anymore. I had lots of dreams that haven't be realized for a long time. This is for my parents. I'm the one who my family can rely on, because I am the only child in the family. If I failed, then it goes bad for-ever. I better study more, and more, and more.
And, I think it's the last posting before I had UN (national exams) because I have decided (this is a strong determination) that I will never opened Blogger, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr and all of internet stuff that made me lose control before June. Next week, I will facing UTS (Mid Exams) and Try Out for the city region. After that, there'll be US (School Exams), who contain ALL materials from grade seven to grade nine for ALL subjects. Man. No, we haven't finish yet. In the end of April, UN are coming... And in May, the high school registration thing will be started.
And this bad-internet-using-habit won't help anything, it would ruin everything. So.. it's much safer to turn the computer off, and just use it for school task. DON'T ever touch the 'google chrome' icon or 'internet explorer' icon. Doing that like open up the evil side of myself -_- oh really.
Computer is my best friend, yet it's my biggest enemy.
I don't want to say a goodbye to you all , because for me, goodbye means going away. I just wanna say this as a temporary separation from internet, because now I had new quotation in my head, an old quotation ; bersusah susah dahulu, bersenang senang kemudian :) Dear world, pray for us, the nine grader. Wish us luck, okay?
:*) --> emoticon APA ini??! hahahahaha