Sunday, August 07, 2011

Relate

I really can’t picture anyone at all having a crush on me. I can’t picture anyone daydreaming about me. I can’t picture someone thinking about me when they’re lay in bed before they fall asleep. I can’t picture anyone telling their friends about me. I can’t picture anyone getting butterflies because I hugged them, or even just because I made eye contact with them. I can’t picture someone smiling because my name lit up their phone. I just can’t.


Bahasa Translation : Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang menyukaiku. Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang memimpikanku. Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang memikirkanku sebelum mereka tidur. Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang bercerita tentangku kepada teman-temannya. Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang deg-degan karena aku memeluk mereka, atau bahkan hanya karena bertemu pandang denganku. Aku tidak bisa membayangkan seseorang tersenyum karena namaku muncul di telepon genggam mereka. Aku hanya tidak bisa membayangkannya. 

RT banget!

When every smansa's student were thinking about their grades, or their future profession, I'm sitting here, and had a thought about that lame thing.

Love. ---> tanda-tanda mau galau lagi.

Akhir-akhir ini, entah kenapa, saya berubah jadi master ilmu tenaga dalem. Hahahahahahahaha no. I mean.. I just could feel it if any girl had a crush on a boy.

Especially, when it comes to girl who had a crush on Alau.

Based on my prediction and telepaty, there are 4 girls who had a crush on Alau. Ada 4 cewek suka sama Alau mabroooow. 3 orang kelas 10, 1 orang kelas 12. Kayaknya kelas 11 ada juga yang suka. Astagfirullah, I'm dead now X( Okay, I didn't have any single feelings for him. Saya nggak mau nambah daftar panjang orang yang menanti cinta alau —sumpah kayak apaan tau— I'm not interested to be in love again. It's super tiring, ya know.

Right now, I just want to follow my life path, my life destiny. I don't want to over-think about my grades, my love life, and everything. I know that I'm not a straight A student, and have no interest in having a boyfie. But sometimes, it just hurt like hell when knowing that I'm not good enough either for smansa or for my love life.


I just wanna do everything in a good way and just hoping for Allah's blessing. I'm imperfect, I know right? I've got lots of will, like getting a scholarship to study overseas, joining AFS, work in voluntary sector or be a diplomat just for once. But then I know, willing is not enough. We must do. 

from here

Only Allah knows how my future will be. I know, that His plans are the best above everything.

sincerely,

Bewew

2 comments:

  1. aku jadi penasaran siapa Alau -_-"
    postinganmu membuatku penasaran. jadi salah siapa? salah kamu. ahahahahahahaha #dor
    tell me bew tell me *toel toel*

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  2. bew , kamu belum cerita lhooo ..

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